I am finding myself feeling somewhat reflective if not "down" today. It's a new year and is suppose to be a new beginning. Reflecting over the past year...it was awesome!! But somehow...and this is what I need to fix...things that happened this holiday season...conflicts that arose...are making it difficult for me to reflect with a smile...and just really wonder about the future.
The conflicts were/are totally unnecessary...manifested by someone getting their "panties in a wad" or "their knickers in a bunch" and feeling it quite neccessary to put their 2 cents worth in...where it was not needed...nor to the glory of God. It does not help that I absolutely hate conflict and try to avoid such as much as possible. I admit to being a coward in this area..and want everyone to be happy...even at my own expense. But, there are times in which setting the record straight is unavoidable. If people would be straightforward and communicate...this would not be the case. Instead, some choose to whip with a snide comment in order to manipulate. Not only do they manipulate someone directly...but they manipulate others indirectly. A snide comment puts you on guard...therefore trickling down to others. Pretty soon...the indirectly manipulated are wondering what offense they have committed to cause a change in behavior by the directly manipulated. Basically...s*** rolls downhill....and right now I am trying to figure out how not to get hit..I am at the bottom...looking up...thinking...WHAT THE HECK???